In the last week, I accepted a job I never thought I'd take and quit the job I thought I was going to be at for years to come. In two weeks, I will be moving up to the Bay Area. I will most likely be living in a hotel for a couple weeks until I get settled. I need to pack up my life and say "bye for now" to my friends here in Santa Barbara. I am terrified, but maybe not for the reasons you would think…
I'm going to be working for the property management firm exclusively for Facebook. I NEVER would have thought I would be working in Silicon Valley. But God knew. By a string of incredible circumstances, I already have a beautiful community of friends waiting for me in the Bay Area. I'm SURE that I have amazing experiences awaiting me at Facebook. And as far as a place to live, I have no doubt that God is lining that one up too. [but sooner rather than later would be great, thanks!]
So what is so scary then? Well, I realized that I am losing so many of the things I have been using to define myself.
I loved the image that I had created for myself. I know a "good Christian" should never find identity in anything besides Christ. But guess what… that is hard. As much as I tried to keep that truth in my heart, I realized that I let every other thing define me. And my image became an idol to me.
I was an engineer… but now that's no longer in my job title
I was a part-time wine pourer… but I had to quit that job
I was a belly-dancer… but I had to leave my troupe
I was a kickboxer… but I had to quit that too
I was a roomie at The Hideaway… but I am moving out
I don't have some great epiphany to end this post on. Honestly, I'm still scared. But I have complete faith that God is going to use this empty-ness to create something beautiful. I can't wait to document the changes that are going to happen in the months to come. Welcome to the new journey.